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I’m playing Fallout 3 again and it always makes me so sad.

Your character has a tough time growing up without a mother, and if you’re sneaky enough around the birthday scene, you can follow the Overseer to find out that he really thinks you are a brat and doesn’t want Amata hanging around you. It’s pretty clear you feel as though you don’t fit in like everyone else.

From your fight with Butch over how he’s speaking to Amata, you soon find out that your father has left.

Why? You weren’t told.

So you go on out, the Overseer wants you dead, and you have to leave your only friend Amata behind.

Once you locate your father, after exhausting hours on your character’s part, doing small favors in exchange for bits of information, you learn that your father left you for his project. The project he and your mother had started.

Learning that made me feel angry, betrayed, he didn’t tell me, didn’t inform me, and left me in the Vault to get killed. You made it out just fine, you’ve seen the world, but damn if you don’t have scars from it.

In dialogue with your dad, it always felt as though he was pretty distant with you. Yes, he loved you but he was so distant.

And when he powers on the purifier to sacrifice himself…well that was your last bit of family. Do you feel sad that he’s gone? Or do you just feel numb? You don’t have time to grieve. You have to keep going on, finishing the project, protecting other people.

And as the true ending of Fallout 3 goes, you sacrifice yourself the same way he did. And you know the passcode from what your dad had told you all those years ago, your mother’s favorite Bible verse:

“I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely. (Revelation 21:6)”

216.

Maybe after all the fighting is over, and after the purifier is up and running, you can listen to all the holotapes your dad made. Maybe then you can cry a little.

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